I'm afraid to hurt you..

I'm afraid of hurting my baby. I don't really care if I flipped the car or hurt myself but I'm really afraid that this feeling will consume me while I'm driving to work and sending baby to Childcare that I feel down enough to flip the car. I'm seriously in no state to drive cause I'm driving way too reckless and too fast and purposely refusing to strap on the seatbelt.

Should I seek help? Did I not cope with this the last time without the needing anything. It's mind over matter just get over it. 

Too many issues, at home, at work, the other half.. Maybe I need help to deal with this..