Lost interest

Off late I've been thinking again and again about ending it all. Many times I had contemplated on overdosing, fall of the river or the best way to cut myself. At lunch I sat by the river again unknowingly sobbing the entire hour and starring at the murky water. When I nearly fell and I felt the rush of adrenalin passes thru me and something in the wind telling me it's time.

I've lost the interest to work, to eat or to socialise and have been avoiding phone calls and texts which is so unlike me. The only thing that makes me tick is the 2 year old.

Am I going thru another round of D. Please... I don't need it..